Ask your counsellor - Q&A column

[The following column answered by me appeared in the Deccan Herald Education page on May 28, 2015]

Dear Madam

Ever since I started high school my dad and I have had problems. As the years went by I realized what I was doing wrong and changed with the help of a therapist. But it seems that no matter what I do, I can never gain his approval. He wants me to be clean but I can never do it to his standard. He wants me to have good grades but my one B upsets him. He thinks I’m not a normal teenager because I don’t want to spend every second of my free time cleaning rather than watching TV or playing video game part of the time and cleaning the rest. If I don’t keep my room clean for one day he turns off the wi-fi and the cable. I have learned to bite my tongue in most situations but I’m at my wit’s end, I don’t know how to deal with his controlling behavior any longer without snapping, and I can’t tell him how I feel (ever) because he thinks I’m trying to be manipulative. Please, I need advice, any advice is better than none.
(name withheld)

Dear adolescent

A big part of adolescence involves individuating from your parents, and forming your own identity – figuring out who you are, what you like, what you dislike, who your friends are, what you want to do, and not do. In this process you will go through the process of liking some of the traits and beliefs of your parents, and disliking some of them. This is a healthy process and it is good that you are able to engage with it. Unfortunately, parents sometimes are not able to make this transition along with the child, and don’t allow the relationship to evolve from one that is autocratic to one that is more democratic It may be helpful for you to go for some family counselling which will help you understand your parents, and help them understand you. They are, after all, doing what they believe is in your best interest; they just don’t know how to do it effectively. You could all do with some help and you could try suggesting it to them. Your parents will have their own set of issues which will surface during the time of family therapy.

In the meantime, whenever you have a disagreement and want to say something, try telling him how that makes you feel, instead of focusing on what your father said or did. For example, if he tells you to clean up your room when you just did it, don’t shout back, or question him on why he keeps telling you to do it. Just say “when you keep asking you to clean the room, I feel hurt/ sad / frustrated/ angry/ put down/ not good enough” or whatever it is that you feel. What this approach does is, it takes the focus away from what he is doing (which naturally will make him, or anyone in his position, defensive) and brings the focus to how you are feeling (and I am quite sure his aim is not to make you feel the way you do, just that he does not realize it). Hope this helps.

Dear Madam,

There is a girl I like in one of my classes at school. It started off as an observation, but then I became interested, so I decided to offer her the seat next to me in class, and she accepted. After our class work was finished we talked a bit but that was only for two days. I learned that we share interests in music and literature etc. Well after that we didn’t talk but we smiled at each other and said “hi” and “bye,” and then winter break happened. When we came back I continued the same greetings. I want to be more than her friend, but I don't know how. That is why I ask you for assistance before the school year is over. By the way some traits of hers: She’s quiet and doesn’t have a lot of friends. I’ve only seen one or two. She’s a good student, also a bit slow in responding. She also doesn't look people in the eyes, talks very quietly. She’s lazy — meaning that she told me she just goes home and watches TV. Basically I’m asking you should I make a move — asking her for her number or asking her out for a walk to the park? Some of my characteristics are like hers. 
P M 

Dear PM
I am not in a position to tell you whether you should make the first move or not. If your heart tells you to, do it. What are your fears around it? Learn to take a risk. But that is what it is – a risk. Which means there is a 50 per cent chance that she may accept your first move, or a 50 per cent chance she may reject it. You will need to be able to interpret the fact that she does not accept your first move appropriately (in case she does not accept it). Which means that you must not see it as a rejection of you, but just that she was not ready for something more at this time. It also does not mean that because you like her, she has to like you. Nor does it mean that if you like her at this point in your life, your feelings are going to stay constant forever and that she is the one for you. A relationship involves two people, and if you are willing to take the next step with an open, exploratory stance, then go ahead and take the risk. Remember, this is not a final destination or goal, nor is she a trophy to be won. She is another human being with her own sets of choices, likes and dislikes, and she has every right to express them.

Reassess yourselves - Ask your counsellor Q&A column

[The following questions answered by me was published in the Deccan Herald Education pages on May 7, 2015]

Dear Madam,
I have just completed my class XII Board exams (CBSE) and am now preparing for AIPMT 2015. My aim is to get into AFMC, Pune and join the Armed Forces as a doctor. The problem is that I've completely lost interest in studies. It was never like this before. I loved studying, especially Science, and I used to get very good marks, as well. But now studies have become a tedious task. And naturally, marks have suffered. I’ve just not been able to perform well this year. Neither have I performed well in the Boards. My confidence has crashed and no matter how much I try, I’m not able to lift myself up from the mess that I’m in. I've been a very lonely person since class VI and no matter how much I try, I've never been able to make friends.

Good marks were the only reason I was able to keep my head high, but now, since I've lost that also, I feel very dark, dead and depressed. I feel like I’m trapped and I’m just not able to concentrate on my studies. I’m with my books all the time but knowledge is farther than ever. And somehow in the long run, I've developed the habit of procrastinating.

I've never achieved the goals I set for a single day because of this habit. No matter how much I try, I'm not able to get that old zeal and fire for studies. I really want to become a doctor (a surgeon) and serve my country. But my goal now seems to be very distant. Please help me.
A student

Dear student
Thank you for reaching out for help, and there are many things in your letter that I feel you may need help with. You have talked about your loneliness since the sixth standard and how your sense of worth was based on your marks. That is what gave you the confidence to face the world. And now you are feeling that you are losing that and therefore your future is appearing dark and bleak. I am not sure which city you live in, but if you have access to a counsellor, I think you will be able to derive a lot of benefit – in building your self-esteem, and in understanding your fears and distractions, and therefore learning to focus. You will also get help in addressing your issue of loneliness. Alternatively, you can call the free counselling helpline for young adults set up by Parivarthan. For this you can call the number 080 65333323 and a counsellor at the other end will support you.

My analysis is that because your whole sense of self-worth is based on your marks, as the time for the big tests is approaching, you are getting increasingly stressed and anxious about it, which is preventing you from focusing on your task at hand. Helping you understand your fears and anxieties will go a long way in reducing your stress around these exams. I have written extensively on this topic in my blog, and you may also want to reference some of the articles there – See a Lion in the Mirror (http://personalorbitchange.blogspot.in/2010/09/see-lion-in-mirror.html ); Putting Exams in Perspective (http://personalorbitchange.blogspot.in/2010/09/putting-exams-in-perspective.html ); It’s not the end of the road (http://personalorbitchange.blogspot.in/2010/09/its-not-end-of-road.html ).

Dear Madam 
I am studying in class XI with a combination of PCMB. I got an 8.4 CGPA in the class X. I always get distracted when I study or listen to teachers either in class or tuition, so I am not able to concentrate on my studies. As I will be entering class XII soon and this year will be very crucial for me, I need to work hard and get good marks. Please help me. Thank you.
Jayanth

Dear Jayanth
I would like you to spend some time to understand your motivation for studying and getting good marks. Is it something that you ‘need’ to do because of societal and parental pressure, or is it something that you ‘want’ to do because of your own inner drive to do well and excel in whatever you are attempting. Till such time that you do it, because it is an external need and expectation from you, you are doing it to keep other people happy. And that is a big pressure, because no matter what you do, other people may still not be happy. However, if it is because of your own internal motivation, then you do it because of the joy and satisfaction it gives you and that does not put any external pressure on you. So try and understand why you say you ‘need’ to get good marks, and how you can move from feeling that external pressure to a state where you would ‘like’ to get good marks for your own satisfaction. This shift in perspective will reduce the negative effects of stress that are not allowing you to focus, and will allow you to benefit from the positive effects of having some stress and pressure that motivates you to work hard and give it your best shot.
All the best.

Dear Madam
I secured 89.17% in my I PUC. I joined a nearby tutorial for II PUC. I would like to pursue engineering and then do an MBA in an IIM or any other reputed university. I am clear about my career, but I am quite afraid about KCET which I am going to write in April 2016. Since I am not going to CET coaching, I am a bit tense about whether I will be able to do it. I also wanted to know if an engineering college and its reputation matters in any way for my career? My mom says all colleges are the same. Is it true? My home, college and tuition place are quite far. Since my tutorials start at 6 am, I have to get up at 4 am. After the tutorials get over at 8 am, I leave for college and have something to eat. My college finishes at 4 pm and I return home with my sister by 6 pm. I am scared of the lack of time to prepare for my CET. Is a crash course enough for CET? Please guide me. I am really confused and worried. Sorry for such a long list of queries.
Aishwarya S Rao

Dear Aishwarya
I can sense your shortage of time, and how tiring such a long day must be for you. I cannot give you any input on which course is good and what is enough. But I do know that it is important to be able to have some time to de-stress in the day, otherwise all your effort may be counter-productive. It may be more helpful for you to do some amount of self-study and spend less time commuting and getting tired. Think about it.

As for which college is good and whether all colleges are the same, it is true that some of the more prestigious college open better doors for you in the job market. However, having said that, it is important to remember three things:

1. Your success in your career will not depend only on your marks in these, and other, exams. It will depend on your other, more important, soft skills like communication skills, ability to be part of a team, ability to lead a team, ability to think creatively and out of the box, ability to problem-solve, ability to handle pressure and so on. 

2. A particular college may open some doors for you, but being successful at those opportunities that come up,and making the most of them is in your hands and has very little to do with the marks in your exams.

3. If one door closes, another one will open – only you have to allow yourself to see it.
Hope this helps.
All the best

Dear Madam,
I completed my BCom in 2009 and after that I took up the CA course. After  much struggle I completed my IPCC and I’m now in the final course. But in the Final too, I am struggling to complete. After six attempts also, I couldn't pass the CA Final exam and now I have my lost patience to complete CA.

After analyzing why I am not able to pass, I realized that I was most interested in Computer Science Engineering. But due to some unavoidable situations, and a few people saying that engineering is more competitive and has less job opportunities, they made me take up CA.

Now I’m really confused about my future. I’m planning to switch over to CS engineering from CA. My question is whether there is any scope to switch over to software engineering and will I be successful after taking up engineering. And what courses should I complete to become a successful professional, and how much time will it take to do so.

I don’t know today’s scope in computer science, and I request you to provide me the trend in computer science in upcoming years. I’m eagerly waiting for your valuable suggestions.
Vijay Kumar

Dear Vijay Kumar
I am not a career counsellor and so will not be able to give you any inputs on which course is good, how long it will take, and what are the prospects after it. I do, however, feel that after spending six years doing CA, if you want to change your field to engineering now, you will have to start from the very beginning, and you must be comfortable with the fact that all your colleagues and class mates will be 6 years younger than you. Both these situations can be very challenging, unless you are prepared for them. Also, how have you ascertained that your interest is actually computer science engineering, and how are you going to overcome the hurdles that field will throw up. I am not even sure you can go down that path with a Commerce background. 

Given that you are in the last mile of your CA, you may want to persist and at least finish that before going another path. All your options will still be open after you finish that. Finishing it will give you a sense of satisfaction that you have not wasted six years in terms of qualifications.

Before changing, it may be wise for you to spend some time on self-reflection and understanding yourself better – what are your strengths and weaknesses, what are the opportunities available to you, and what are the roadblocks you may encounter? It is not that changing the line of study is a problem, but in your case you may need to do a cost-benefit analysis and see if you are better off spending that time studying engineering, or engaging in some entrepreneurial activities. There are many success stories of entrepreneurs who do not have degrees to back them.
Good luck!

Does hitting impact the mental health of your children?

[The following article written by me was carried on the website of the White Swan Foundation http://www.whiteswanfoundation.org/understanding-mental-health/experts-speak-details/does-hitting-impact-the-mental-health-of-your-children/]

Children are routinely hit, at home and at school. After all, that is the most effective way to discipline them, isn’t it? Well, it certainly is the easiest way. How effective it is, is a whole different story.
I have met several children who are routinely hit for the slightest misdemeanor on their part. And adults who were hit when they were children – either with a bare hand, a ruler, a stick, or even a hot metal rod (as I mentioned in my last column). Apart from the fact that this gets me really agitated (and is really my issue to deal with), I began to think about the reasons that could possibly drive parents to hit their children, and the psychological and emotional impact of this on their children.
So why would a parent physically hurt their child? My conversations with several parents over the years have thrown up many possible reasons.

One of these, and a very significant one, is that that was the way they were brought up, and, therefore, that is the only way they know to discipline their own children. They turned out okay, and so will their children, they tell me. “How can you discipline a child without beating them?” is a common refrain. My question to those parents is, “Did you like being hit, when it was being done to you? What were your feelings at that time?” It may have been a long time ago, but if they took a minute to recollect those instances, those feelings of many years ago would resurface: the fear, the anger, the frustration, the hurt, the feeling of not being good enough, the sadness, and yes, even the hatred for those who used to hit them!

The second reason is anxiety and helplessness — anxiety about their child’s performance and future, and helplessness at their inability to control it. Anxiety about how society will judge their child, anxiety of what will become of their child in the future, and probably above all, anxiety about how society will judge them as parents, if their child does not turn out ‘right’ or ‘perfect’. This also ends up being a conscious or unconscious outlet for their other anxieties, stresses, frustrations and failures. They feel angry with life and this is their way of expressing their anger. They may, knowingly or unknowingly, be expressing their anger onto their children, who feel powerless to respond. This may make the parents feel more in control of their actions, at a time when they feel helpless and out of control in the face of other situations.

There are several myths surrounding the ‘need’ to resort to hitting, and its importance, in bringing up children. Some parents believe that they should be strict and their child should be fearful of them. This makes them feel in control. On the contrary, though, these children may end up believing that their parents are completely ‘out-of-control’ and stop trusting their ability to guide and mentor them.
Some parents believe that if they beat their child, the child will be scared of them, and will be able to focus on work, achieve something in life, and stay on track. On the contrary, children who are hit, learn to steer clear of their parents’ track, and do exactly what they want, just ensuring that their parents never come to know of it! The child feels motivated to do ’wrong’ behind the parents’ back. Fear also distracts the child and stops them from being able to concentrate. Fear may motivate them enough to avoid failure, but it can never make their journey joyful, or motivate them enough to achieve their true potential.

Some parents believe that there is no better way (or other way) to discipline or bring up children. On the contrary, this is probably the least effective way. It teaches them that violence is okay. It teaches them that they don’t need to respect the feelings of others. It teaches them that they are not worthy of being liked or respected.

Some parents believe that disciplining must involve painful, punitive punishment for it to be effective. On the contrary, this only results in feelings of hatred and dislike towards the offending parent. For disciplining to be effective, consequences must be known ahead of time, and there must be certainty of their being enforced a hundred per cent of the time.

Some parents believe that the role of disciplining is to make the child pay for past misbehavior. On the contrary, the purpose of disciplining is to stop future misbehavior. And this involves a completely different shift in mindset for the parents. The painfulness of the hitting becomes completely irrelevant. The knowledge around certainty of punishment becomes more important than its randomness and painfulness.

So, there are several psychological and emotional fallouts from resorting to hitting as a way of parenting and instilling discipline. For one, the child lives in constant fear. And, more importantly, children learn that violence is an acceptable reaction to a trigger, and so start practicing it themselves. They act out in school — either by becoming bullies, because they also want to feel powerful at least somewhere, or by becoming subdued, scared and submissive, and become targets for others. They work just enough to avoid failure, rather than being self-motivated and pushing themselves to achieve success, exploiting their true potential, and enjoying the journey that is life. They may slowly stop communicating with their parents and hide their feelings and activities. This may lead them to maintaining only a duty-bound relationship with their parents, as opposed to a relationship built on love, connection, communication, trust and caring.

So, parents, find a way to deal with your anxieties and the short-comings of your past, whether that means practicing meditation, talking to a friend, or seeking the help of a counsellor. Take a minute to reflect on the time when you were at the receiving end of such behavior.

I would prefer to believe that parents hit their children mindlessly; that it is an automatic response to a momentary stimulus, rather than a thought-out action with the intent of hurting their child. And, therefore, this is an attempt at making parents aware of the possible long-term implications of these momentary thoughtless acts. If they then still choose to indulge in such behavior, it is at least a thought-out, mindful choice that they make, the consequences of which they fully understand.